Something to fall back on

I have no idea how to start this post so I am just going to kind of stream-of-consciousness write it and see where it lands. I have been wanting to write since last week, but have really not felt right about it. At what point does a blog start becoming too personal? At what point do I have to be careful of what I say for fear that I am divulging things that I don't want others to know about me. For the most part I am an open book. If you have ever met me in real life and had a chance to talk to me you would see very quickly that I will tell you anything you want to know. I don't like gossip, I like to go straight to the source and get the info. I digress.

Last week John was told that his was being seperated from the company he works for. This came as absolutely NO suprise to us as they have been setting this up and talking about it for months. We were well aware that out of 8 positions they would only be keeping 2 (that is 75%) and our chances were not good. It is more than just the economy. There are circumstances within the company that would have had this happen regardless. The company has been good to us. I have no complaints except to say that I think they let someone go that was a true team player and a heck of a salesman, but you can't change what is.

What this means to us is a lot of change, a lot of prayer, a lot of unknown, and some fear. God is in control. I am well aware that He chooses the time and place to do His work. I believe with my whole heart that this was for the better is some way, but I am not great with unknown or with change. Really, who is?

What I do know is that it is a complete blessing that we have some options. The plan is for me to get out there and work while John is looking for a job full time. I decided a good option was for me to be a substitute teacher. I was even more happy about that idea when I found out that I have completed all of the requirements except to be fingerprinted! For whatever reason I decided when I was in college to take the CBEST exam, I have my degree, and I just need to jump through a few small hoops now! Yay for decisions made when I was 21!

Okay. I think I am done for the evening.